All Is Clear

It’s been raining here, I can smell it in the air
and I love this dirty city, I spent my childhood here.
It is inevitable that we’ll be saying our good byes,

but I’ll always have your sky line in my mind.

I have loved and lost, all around your city blocks.
And the years have gone and painted me
like leaves against the rocks.
And in my haste to make a new life,

where I am going I don’t know.

I will turn around and wave and I am gone.

As those big jet engines ignite
and take me over mountains
on that long island flight
I will think of the loves in my life

as I look out on the night, and I am gone.

Way up here, it is all so clear and I am not afraid of living with these tears.

Way up here, it is all so clear and I am not afraid of living in these years.

I have watched my friends scatter out across this land
and I wonder if I’ll live so long to see them all again.
And if I don’t, well, it doesn’t matter.
They love me just the same, for the hearts I love most

remain unchanged.

I have dreamed of a time when I’d leave this all behind
but I thought that I’d be stronger or I hoped that I’d be blind
but now I know that I’ll be neither.
And it hurts to say good bye,

I’ll always have your sky line in my eyes.

Way up here, it all is clear

and I am not afraid of living in these years.

 

© 1989 Robert Carraher All rights reserved

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About DirtyLowdown
I was born in Pomona, California at a very young age. I had a pretty normal childhood…or I was a pretty normal child hood if mom is telling the story. I was a paperboy who always porched , usually on the subscribers porch. I washed cars and bussed tables which left me with a life time affliction of chapped lips. I was a soda fountain jock-jerk and a manic mechanic but my first real job was as a labor organizer in a maternity ward. Then, because of the misjudgment of a judge I spent nearly 10 years in the service of our country mostly on KP duty. Our country sure turns out a lot of dirty dishes. I am a past master at pots and pans. They eventually recognized my real talent and let me wander around some very unfriendly places carrying a big radio that didn’t work. Along the way I took up the bass guitar, jotting down stories, electronic engineering and earned a degree in advanced criminal activities. I spent most of my adult life, if you can call it that, working in the I.T. industry, which I was particularly suited for since we worked in rooms with no windows. On and off I taught in colleges, universities and reform schools as a student teacher… I like smog, traffic, kinky people, car trouble, noisy neighbors, and crowded seedy bars where I have been known to quote Raymond Chandler as pickup lines. I have always been a voracious reader, everything from the classics, to popular fiction, history to science but I have a special place in my heart for crime fiction, especially hard-boiled detective fiction and noir. I write a book and music review blog for all genres at The Dirty Lowdown and another dedicated to Crime Fiction and all things Noir called Crimeways. It’s named after the magazine that appeared in the Kenneth Fearing classic, The Big Clock. There I write scholarly reviews of the classic hard boiled, noir and crime fiction books from the 20's through today. Mostly I drool over the salacious pictures on the covers. I also write for Technorati/BlogCritics where I am part of a sinister cabal of superior writers.

One Response to All Is Clear

  1. Faye says:

    Very nice . Thanks for sharing it

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